Me and ‘my boys’…
Posted by: Dilla on: June 17, 2009
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Me and my boys….
Me and 'my boys'...
From left: Jefry Liven, Wong Tat King, Me
Front: Marcos Insing
Decisions….decisions…
Posted by: Dilla on: June 17, 2009
So many to think of….so many to decide upon.
After 10 days of being blissfully happy surrounded by ‘my boys’….
After 10 days of being ME without ever pretending to be someone else….
I have come to a decision. An important decision that will affect my life from now onwards…
I have decided that this will be THE END.
THE ABSOLUTE END.
I’ll have no more of the hurt and pain.
I’ll have no more of the sufferings.
I’ll have no more of the hyprocrasy.
I’ll have no more of the pretension.
I’ll have ME.
Just ME.
WITHOUT HIM.
I’m packing my stuff.
I’m moving on to a new place, a new horizon.
I’m moving to MY PLACE.
WITHOUT HIM.
…and the joyful occasion will be announced soon. Very soon I hope….
One week….
Posted by: Dilla on: May 29, 2009
One week….
I was left alone for one week.
I was calm for one week.
I did not shed any tears for one week.
I was happy….
…but only for one week….
But today, he just had to spoil it all…
He just had to upset me again…
Why can’t t he understand I want to be left alone?
Why can’t he release me?
Why?
Help me….please…
Retail therapy helps…
Posted by: Dilla on: May 14, 2009
I bought a new pair of shoes today.
It’s a Lois genuine leather.
There’s a 20% discount.
A good bargain I must say for I usually have a hard time in finding good shoes that fit comfortably.
I’m feeling better than yesterday.
Maybe because I have poured out half of what’s in my heart.
I have more pouring out to do tonight and tomorrow too (I guess).
Hope I’ll be ok.
But I do know that after these pouring out session, I’ll sink.
The difference is whether I’ll be able to save myself by grabbing whatever lifeline offered by whoever or swim like mad to safety, or I’ll just let myself sink into oblivion.
Hmmm……
salah aku kah?
Posted by: Dilla on: May 13, 2009
is happiness something bestowed upon you or is happiness something you have to work hard for?
orang kata makin jauh makin sayang. not me. makin jauh makin tak rasa apa-apa. bila jumpa rasa rimas. bila dia telefon, i have nothing to say, nothing to share. aku rasa terkongkong. the noose around my neck is getting tighter and tighter. salah aku kah?
i am miserable. i am upset. i am sad.
i am tired of being someone i am not. i am tired of pretending.
dah penat jadi pembohong. dah jenuh jadi hipokrit.
salah aku kah?
aku perlu ketenangan. aku perlu kebebasan. tapi aku tak sanggup melihat titisan air matanya. aku tak sanggup melukakan hati dia.
kejam kah aku?
sampai bila aku sanggup menanggung penderitaan ini? sampai bila aku sanggup bendung kesengsaraan ini?
aku dah tak sanggup. cukup la…
aku dah batul-betul tak sanggup.
tapi sanggupkah aku melihat kekecewaan dia? sanggupkah aku melihat impian kebahagiannya hancur?
sanggupkah aku?
sanggupkah aku……
Sounds like me…lol
Posted by: Dilla on: May 6, 2009
F : loves people wild and crazy adore you
A : crazy
D : a very good girlfriend or boyfriend anyone ever had
H : stick to one
I : is really sweet & romantic
L : is a very good kisser
A : crazy
T : a smile to die for
U : is loved by everyone
L : is a very good kisser
S : makes people laugh
H : stick to one
A : crazy
H : stick to one
R : funny
I : is really sweet & romantic
Y : is loved by everyone
A : crazy
H : stick to one
B : loves people and sex
I : is really sweet & romantic
N : is a very good kisser too!
T : a smile to die for
I : is really sweet & romantic
M : Makes dating fun
O : has one of the best personalities ever
H : stick to one
D : a very good girlfriend or boyfriend anyone ever had
S : makes people laugh
H : stick to one
U : is loved by everyone
K : hot
R : funny
I : is really sweet & romantic
For the love of me!
Posted by: Dilla on: April 16, 2009
I have never watched a live Muay Thai fight. Sure, I’ve seen them on DVDs. I’ve seen them nak muays train… but a live fight? Never! At least not yet… 
On May 8th and 9th, 2009, the 3rd Kedah Royal Cup Muay Thai Tournament will be held in CRC Hall, Kulim, Kedah. And I’m going back home to see it! (Did I ever tell you people that I’m from up north?)
Anyways, an introductory video is posted on the official blog. I watched it for the first time today…just a few minutes ago.
Boy! I got goosebumps all over me! It was like falling in love for the first time! Seriously!
I do recommend everyone to watch the video. Please click here or here.
To think that I have met and interviewed a few nak muays, written stories about them, spent time watching them practice their craft…I felt somewhat inadequate when I am among them (because I have never seen any of them in a live fight) but no more!
Come May, I do believe I will be complete!
MatteReD ViEwS